i am so ready to be done with work, but i know that is impossible. being with kids every day (ok, 2 days a week) is enough to drive anyone crazy, even though i love those kids. i mean, i would do anything for them, but sometimes i just want to make them sit in the corner, completely silent, for oh, 5 minutes. 5 minutes of not entertaining them would be amazing. i am not kidding - if 5 minutes goes by without me doing something super fun with them, they are like, i'm bored. what the heck, go play with your zillion toys?! you're 5, use your imagination - my imagination died years ago! not really, but still. and i get to look forward to working outside on a deck the rest of the week. perfect, its only in the freakin' 90s here. but there is a light at the end of the tunnel - evan comes in a week! i know i won't work then! hahaha ok, enough of my venting about my life that really isn't that bad, i am just tired and hot right now.
....and i miss my friends..... my life has moved on from colorado, but i haven't - this in between time is so weird - my 2 worlds cannot connect, so i just keep jumping from one to the other, and whichever one i am in, i miss the other. how typical of me to be discontent wherever i am. maybe i should do something about that....
i am much more at peace about big things in my life that have been driving me crazy - let's just say that God is amazing and i don't know why i fail to always give him everything! after one night of just giving everything to God (ok, cue the song i really don't like on "who you are"), i feel so much more at peace and free. God is amazing. :) obviously.... :) when he reminds me of how great he is, it makes me wonder how i could not live for him, you know? i probably could have phrased that sentence better, but i am not going to. you get the point.
and it's probably a good thing that this post went from my whining to how great God is. that's how life should be - moving on from focusing on ourselves to focusing on God. how spiritual of me to say that. no, i don't mean to be annoying and too spiritual-sounding, but it's true. ok, i am done.
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2 things came to mind as i was reading your post. first, i wonder how you will feel in 2 years and your friends move all over and you don't have the fall to look forward to? I know this is a sad thought but you are half way there. Second, and more important, as i was reading it reminded me of the 8th psalm. how david was so woe is me in the beginning and then praising God in the end.
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