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i am at home. but we have moved, so my home has a new house. i don't know how i feel about it. i think i am just overwhelmed at being here and the room and everything. and i am going to work with dad tomorrow. i get this sick feeling in my chest when i think about painting all day. i wish i didn't need money. ugh. such is the life of a poor college student. i guess i signed up for this when i picked an expensive college. i miss my friends. home isn't the same with everyone at school. and my furman friends - i miss y'all. break is good, but i wish we could stay together and go home at the same time, but that is impossible. but call me if you get a chance, i have a lot of free time. :) i think i might write a song. (that was for you, polly) :) and i don't know what to get my dad for his birthday. deborah suggested cologne, but we get him that every year - he is quite fragrant. haha that was funny. gosh, i love kelly clarkson. "beautiful disaster" is my current favorite song and it has been for the past 2 weeks. i cannot describe how much i love it. i listen to it so many times each day - i don't know why, it's not like it applies to my life, i just like it a lot. shout out to my good friend andrew ross. dude, fo real doh. we have some silly fresh convos online. :) wow, breaking out my gangsta. hahaha :) today i went shopping and bought some new tops - they are super cool, almost too cool for me. i am still debating if i can pull it off or if i should take them back. we'll see. i hate spending money. that's because i have to make it, and that makes me think about work tomorrow again. ugh. i need to stop. maybe i will work on a craft - ooohh my scrapbook pages come in tomorrow - i can start that project! yay! and american idol tuesday, wednesday and thursday nights! tomorrow night i will just have to rent a movie to watch while i scrapbook. i was thinking about "footloose" because i have never seen it, but i have it on good authority it is an amazing film. :) ok, i am going to go get ready for bed because i have to leave the house at 8 tomorrow morning. (it is 9:40 here.) that is earlier than when i am at school!!! what kind of break did i sign up for?!? ok, i am done whining. i just needed to get that out there. i will work on my attitude and come up with some good things to say tomorrow night. love to all of you who read this!!! :)